… a thought making crooked all that is straight.

Rosh Chodesh thoughts

Yesterday was Rosh Chodesh, the head of the month, the New Moon. I usually mark full and new moon in someway – a ritual, a meditation – something that connects me to the Source.

I have a shrine to Karni-Mata/Durga in the living room. As rat Goddess, Karni-Mata looks after my pet rat and keeps him healthy and happy. I have a shrine to Seshat in the office. She supports me in my work. And I have a shrine to Isis in my prayer corner. So it may surprise you to know that I consider myself a monotheist. For me each God- and Goddess-face is a cypher for something entirely unknowable and inconceivable. How can we, as limited beings, comprehend the Limitless? But the New Moon, the dark, hidden face of the Goddess is for me a time to focus momentarily on that Nameless, Faceless One. This is when I open myself up to something so immense, it cannot be expressed in words.

When I turn to individual God and Goddess aspects, I am calling on an aspect of the Source in a way that facilitates a working relationship. To really be aware of that limitless expanse of Nothing-Everything at all times is surely something only accessible to the great mystic or the madman. In trying to address this Immenseness with my petty needs and fears, I would become voiceless and lost in awe. By focusing on aspects of the Source, such as Isis, Seshat, Atum, I can connect in my limited human way and bring the spiritual help, power and magic through them into my life. But I never lose sight of the Ein Soph Aur, the formless void – that we perhaps only perceive as void, because our limited perceptions prevent us from seeing what we are not yet fit to see. I can talk to you about my experiences and work with Karni-Mata, Isis and various archangels. But I cannot talk to you about touching Ein Soph Aur in the very depths of myself – THAT is the true secret of the Craft, not how many coven members does it take to change a light bulb, and what grade should the person be who actually unscrews the bulb … Don’t let anyone tell you that any kind of hierarchy will bring you closer to the Secret.

The Secret is ultimately between you and the Source.

© starofseshat 2008

See also The Green Witch with an interesting set of comments too!

2 responses

  1. Peace Star of Seshat,

    I found my way to your blog from The Green Witch’s blog. I have been enjoying what I have been reading. Greetings of peace to you.

    A very interesting and profound post. I really liked the way you talked about the formless void, as something we are not yet ready to see. I also agree that, ultimately, the secret is something between you and the Source.

    As a Muslim, there is much here that is new to me – but that’s good and I welcome it – as it gives me the chance to learn and grow.

    I look forward to reading more of your thoughts.

    Blessed be…

    Abdur Rahman

    June 5, 2008 at 10:48 am

  2. starofseshat

    Merry Meet Abdur Rahman,

    Thank you for stopping by. I’m glad you enjoyed the post, as I have been enjoying your comments on The Green Witch’s blog. I look forward to hearing more of your thoughts from a Muslim perspective.

    This is the purpose of life in my eyes, to make myself fit to see the void. My ultimate prayer is that I may be guided on the shortest (not necessarily the easiest) path possible that will bring me to full unity with the Source.

    I wish you and your family all things good. Blessed Be.
    Star of Seshat

    June 5, 2008 at 1:00 pm