Rosh Chodesh thoughts
Yesterday was Rosh Chodesh, the head of the month, the New Moon. I usually mark full and new moon in someway – a ritual, a meditation – something that connects me to the Source.
I have a shrine to Karni-Mata/Durga in the living room. As rat Goddess, Karni-Mata looks after my pet rat and keeps him healthy and happy. I have a shrine to Seshat in the office. She supports me in my work. And I have a shrine to Isis in my prayer corner. So it may surprise you to know that I consider myself a monotheist. For me each God- and Goddess-face is a cypher for something entirely unknowable and inconceivable. How can we, as limited beings, comprehend the Limitless? But the New Moon, the dark, hidden face of the Goddess is for me a time to focus momentarily on that Nameless, Faceless One. This is when I open myself up to something so immense, it cannot be expressed in words.
When I turn to individual God and Goddess aspects, I am calling on an aspect of the Source in a way that facilitates a working relationship. To really be aware of that limitless expanse of Nothing-Everything at all times is surely something only accessible to the great mystic or the madman. In trying to address this Immenseness with my petty needs and fears, I would become voiceless and lost in awe. By focusing on aspects of the Source, such as Isis, Seshat, Atum, I can connect in my limited human way and bring the spiritual help, power and magic through them into my life. But I never lose sight of the Ein Soph Aur, the formless void – that we perhaps only perceive as void, because our limited perceptions prevent us from seeing what we are not yet fit to see. I can talk to you about my experiences and work with Karni-Mata, Isis and various archangels. But I cannot talk to you about touching Ein Soph Aur in the very depths of myself – THAT is the true secret of the Craft, not how many coven members does it take to change a light bulb, and what grade should the person be who actually unscrews the bulb … Don’t let anyone tell you that any kind of hierarchy will bring you closer to the Secret.
The Secret is ultimately between you and the Source.
© starofseshat 2008
See also The Green Witch with an interesting set of comments too!